Friday, June 17, 2016

An Open Letter To The Man Who Left Me Alone And Pregnant

I hate to admit it but, sometimes I think about you. Especially with Father's Day coming up. 

I wonder who you are. Who you've become. 

Did you ever tell your parents that you have a child?

Do you ever think about us?

But then I remember, you left us. 

You moved on. Without us. 

Do you know that she is the most beautiful thing in this world?

That she is all happiness and smiles? That she is loved and adored? 

That sometimes when she smiles, she looks like you? 

How about that she wiggles her eyebrows like me?

I don't think you do. 

Man are you missing out. 

I almost feel sorry for you. 

You walked away. Of sound body and mind. You chose this not me. 

And sometimes that hurts. Bad. 

But then I remember, even if you chose this, that she has a dad. 

One that will never walk away from her. He will never not want her. 

He is amazing. He holds her hand, and loves her more than life. Watching him with her, you know that even in the darkest times he will stand by her. You can see the love in his eyes. 

I understand that at that time, you made a decision for yourself. I accept that. 

And I forgive you. 

I wish you nothing but happiness. 

That is what I wanted to say. 

I forgive you. I hold no grudges.